A little breather
Whoops, I know I still owe you guys the post about Bora, but let me just take a breather from all the feature-vibe write ups I have been posting lately and take a more personal approach with this one.
Yaaay! I think it has been quite awhile since I wrote something along those lines, eh? At first I was trying my best to strike a balance with this blog by constraining myself in writing something so personal (which has always been the case with my old blog), but eventually once I gotten used to it, it became easier. And now it just became all too comfortable not to delve much deeper into the personal stuff that it somehow became an escape route. So no more escaping!
Hmm.. to tell you honestly, my relationship with God has not been all that great these past weeks. I haven't been very diligent in praying lately. :( I would like to totally blame it on the busyness at work but I know that my lack of discipline was mostly to blame.
So yesterday, I committed to the Lord to setting aside at least 20 minutes each day to just pray and read about His Word. It's not a lot of time, I know... but I would like to start making it regular again. And last night, when I prayed longer that I had the entire week, I really felt lighter, happier and just more sensitive to my friends and loved ones as I remembered them in prayer. :)
So that's my commitment for the week.
I was also confronted by a decision that I have to make very soon about my faith, and I totally didn't see it coming. It's like an all-or-nothing scenario and I have to make a choice. I remember being swept by sadness as I ran through my head what has just been said and the possibility of saying goodbye to a group of people to whom I have gotten closed to. I guess what surprised me the most was not so much the timing as what has been said that shook my beliefs. Waaah, am I confusing you? Haha! Sorry, but yeah, crossroads right here! I have to move and I have to keep growing.
Same goes with my work. Hey! I just celebrated my first month last week! Ambilis nh? But I am looking forward to seeing the day when I am finally confident with my skills. Minsan kasi feeling ko ang tanga ko lang haha! Bancassurance is a totally different industry, dear girls and boys! And I am working with a really good set of people so it is kind of intimidating and scary. As the marketing campaign manager, I know I am called to step up more but it's challenging when you're just learning the ropes. :(
In short, I have my work cut out for me this week. So weekends are excellent breather, same with being in the company of great set of friends, playing with our neighbor's dog (still my stress reliever!) and as weird as this sounds, the semi-long commute to work (at least 1 1/2 hour one way)... it gives me more time to prep for the day ahead and reflect on the day that was. :)